School & A Possibility

I know, I know, I am a bad J-Lander. It has been just about a month since my last entry. There have been a few things that I have wanted to write about but none of them would have produced enough for a decent entry. Now I do have some things to write about. A majority of this entry will be dedicated to one subject. So without further ado, let's get started.

My first Fall college semester has begun and its going rather well. I am taking three courses this semester. I am taking two English classes and a Math class. I have one of my English classes on Tuesdays and then I have my other English class and my math class on Wednesdays. The class have been better than I thought they would be and they aren't bad at all. This will start my third week of the 16-week semester. I am hoping that the rest of the semester goes as smooth as the first two weeks have. Only time will tell.

One day this past weekend was a rather good day for me. I found out that someone that I have been talking to online for many years now, would be willing to consider going on a date with me. In fact, she has already said that she would go. Her name is Whitni and she is one of the nicest and most beautiful girls that I have met. It just blows me away that she is willing to go on a date with me. We still aren't sure when its going to take place but I hope to get things worked out soon.

It's kind of funny though, I am pretty happy about this possible date but at the same time, I am kind of worried about it. The reason that I am so worried about it is because I am a pretty self-conscious guy. Whitni and I have never met offline yet and with the way that I have to jerk and gyrate around to be able to move and to position myself in my wheelchair and the way that I have to feed myself, its something that I do not want Whitni to have to bare-witness to. Also, depending on the place that we go, there is a pretty good chance that I might need help eating. I do not want to go through that and I damn sure do not want Whitni to have to go through that. I am afraid that this would take away from the date and make it less enjoyable. She does know about my disability and knows that I am wheelchair-bound but I am not sure if she really knows the severity of my condition.

I think that I might have come up with a solution to my little worries. I think that it might be in our best interest to have her meet me before we make any plans to go do anything. I think that this will give us both a chance to get to know one another and be around each other. She and I can work out details and talk things over in person and that might make things easier.

I guess we will just have to wait and see what happens. I will keep you posted!

'Till next time.

Jason